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Fuckup

Did I fuck up again?
My mistake it poisons, pulsing through my head
Pooling in my gut
But so what?
I force myself to deserve what I got
Trade a king-sized bed for a nasty little cot
And I’m caught up in all these things that I’ve done wrong

And so I’m telling you
The worst is yet to come
I haven’t even yet begun
To become
Some sorry sad sack on the run

I’m a fuckup through and through
I feel I’ve messed up, done wrong by you
And I’ll say it first
So I don’t have to hear you say something worse

I don’t know what came over me
Left excuses at the door so anyone could see
I’m tearing at the seams
And it seems not to be
Enough

In lieu of an apology
I’ll flap my lips together for a verse or three
Hoping to impart
Open my heart
Get across the lengths I go to beat my back against the wall
To forget I didn’t call
When the hammer comes down from this fist of mine
I’ll beat you to the punch and make a wreckage of my life

I’ve no need to tell you
The worst is yet to come
I haven’t even yet begun
To become
Some sorry sad sack on the run
I’m a fuckup through and through
I feel I’ve messed up, done wrong by you
And I’ll say it first
So I don’t have to hear you say something worse

You better brace yourself, my friend
I know that you’ve been waiting long
But when I come upon an end
I would do anything not to be wrong
Time ticks off chances one by one
I tried to stop it all for naught
So I throw myself under the bus
Let my conscience come undone
Spill my soul upon the pavement in the sun

I’ve come here to tell you
I know I’ve been unfair
And it’s a lot to ask you to care
When you’re the one
That I have been hiding from
I did you dirty this I know
It’s hard to wrap my head around so
I’ll take this cut, I’ll say my sorries, salt the wounds that I made up

The worst is yet to come
I haven’t even yet begun
To become
Some sorry sad sack on the run

I’m a fuckup through and through
I fear I’ve messed up, I’ve done wrong by you
And I’ll say it first
So I don’t have to hear you say something worse